"I'm just going to take a leap of faith and go for it". I wish I could tell you all how many times I've said those words when applying for a job, pitching myself or services, or looking to spend money in order to better myself instead of on shoes. It's always a leap of faith.
Which is dumb. Faith is what you have when you can't see, it's for the unknown. But I know my damn self, I see myself every damn day, and I damn sure know what I'm capable of doing. So why am I so hesitant to invest in that? It's a sure thing!
Since the beginning of my blog, I depended on a significant other for my images and they were fine (some of my pictures were actually great) but they never had that pop that I wanted. My artistic vision was never quite realized. Not to mention the fact that you can't necessarily tell a loved one that you hate the pictures that they took the time to do for you without starting a huge argument. When that relationship ended I panicked for a number of reasons: I didn't want to be alone, that one income life is rough, I didn't know if anyone else would want me and blah blah blah. I also thought about this space. I thought about who was going to take my pictures. Crazy selfish, right? But it was a reality.
Then I started to see the opportunity in this moment. Like, wait! This is the moment that I needed to be pushed to, this is the moment where I stop accepting less than what I envisioned and pay someone for this shit. Someone I can say "Nah this it ain't it" to without it being an issue or "This is my vision" to and it's their actual job to help me make that happen. This was the moment where I could invest in myself and passion to get the things that I wanted out of it. This wasn't a leap of faith, this was me going for it.
You are so much more than a leap of faith. Spending your hard earned money or free time on the betterment of yourself isn't faith. That class you're taking, the money you're saving for that piece of equipment you need, the coach you just hired, that's not a leap of faith. That's you saying I'm going after I want, that shit is mine.